• My Diary,  You Can Do It!!

    I was speaking with a dying woman today…

    Did I grab your attention? If you don’t know, I’m currently employed in a call center 📞 for the real estate market. 🏘️ Practically I hit a milestone of 10 months as the customer care agent on the phone. But the call which I had today will be the one which I will probably remember a years after I don’t be in the customer care business anymore.

    I was calling one of the customers in order to find out the feedback for an offer which she received from a company. The woman on the line had a really kind voice. I already experienced many in this business and heard many things in my calls. Some I wish I didn’t hear. But no entry training for the position never prepared me for what I experienced today. 😮

    The woman told me she really likes the offer, but her situation changed drastically. She confided in me that 10 days ago doctors gave her a terrible diagnosis and she doesn’t know how much time she has and that it can happen any time. Her voice sounded young. I guess something around 40-45.

    Her voice was so bold. She told me she has a 23 years old daughter with a full disability pension and she was looking for a flat for her. But in these new conditions, it would be insane to ask a bank for a mortgage and she was apologizing for rejecting the offer. She was talking so reconciled. It was really hard to respond to that.

    Her story really hit me deeply and while still having her on the line, tears began to fall down my cheeks. I tried to swallow sobs so it wouldn’t be heard in the microphone. I admired so much that at this moment all she cares about is how life will look for her daughter.

    Except for other things I said to her: “You sound reconciled.” and she replied, “Of course, I’m not reconciled, I like life.” But for the whole 6 minutes and 40 seconds of what we were speaking, her voice was so bold, didn’t shake once, I felt incredible strength from her and I admired how strong she is.

    And I admired her level of selflessness the most. She said: “I’m a nurse, I know how it goes.” and I just heard in her voice how much she cares about her daughter and her family.

    Are you still there?” she asked me. “You’re quite quiet.”
    “Yes, yes, I’m. I’m just deeply touched by you. I’m sorry, it’s a little unprofessional. I admire you so much for how brave you are,” I replied.
    “Thank you. Maybe a miracle will happen and I will live,” she said and I agreed to her “Yes, let’s pray for a miracle together.”

    I was already talking about this subject basically one month ago in one of my previous posts starting with a question “What if the car would hit you deathly tomorrow? Will you be dying with memories or with dreams?” But today’s call was a WAKE-UP CALL for me. Literally. Now I realize so much stronger, what I was talking about. I was really overwhelmed by really strong emotions after this call and I cried like crazy. A few crucial things shifted for me after this call.

    At the point where I’m standing right now, I don’t believe that this call was a coincidence. I’m not the only operator in the office. Anybody from my colleagues could get this specific customer. But she ended up on my list and she had this call with me. And it may sound crazy, I’m still overwhelmed by really strong emotions while typing this, but I think I needed this call.

    It may sound crazy, but it was a confirmation for me that I’m on the right track. That the big choices which I’m thinking about are the right moves for me. That I really need a change. That the decision that I want to live my life quite differently than I’m currently living is the right decision. That if this would happen to me, I don’t want to have regrets that I spent all my lifetime in the office. It’s a green light for new adventures.

  • Found on YouTube

    2020: The Musical

    Omg, I just love this ♥ 2020-COVID musical, it’s awesome that Jimmy can take something so terrible like a pandemic and capture it in something amazing like this. The zoom past is the best 😀

  • My Diary

    Hello from Turkey, Merhaba!

    Hello everyone! How are you? So I was quite quiet for some time. I know. So a few things changed for me. Totally for better! I quit my job. Basically I didn’t, I just internally suffered and waited till the end of my contract and didn’t sign a new one. Soooooooooooooo goooooooood decision. I spent even more time in that job then I should. It was affecting me drastically. My mood and energy were always low and I felt angry all the time. It was time to quit even sooner, but… money… you know… I needed to save some. So the last two months there were real suffering for me. I knew I want to quit, but I had to continue for a couple more weeks.

    Leaving Greece was quite dramatic. Firstly, I had a real issue with my employer to convince them to take their property back (working computer, headphones, mouse, …). It was a real pain in the @ss and I cannot start explaining and sharing the whole story about it because I would get super FURIOUS again. Now it will be just a bad memory and it will stay that way. Secondly, my flight was canceled three times. The original date of my departure was planned for August 1, I called to call center of Turkish Airlines three times. In the end, I had to purchase tickets from different companies and take a super unexpected route. I had to fly from Athens, Greece to Frankfurt, Germany with Aegean Airlines and from there with Sun Express to İzmir, Turkey. I left my greek home (understand house) at morning 5:20 and I was standing in front of İzmir Adnan Menderes Airport at 19:20 with my luggage (don’t even want me to start about luggage!) where my boyfriend picked me up. Whole-time with a facemask on my face without even a one-minute break. Exhausting. Really exhausting.

    So I arrived at my final destination 3 days later than was planned. But I am totally grateful that I was able to get here in the first place somehow! Even if this “sightseeing trip” wasn’t exactly cheap. But don’t get me WRONG, please! This is not a f*@king vacation (kind of it is but in a different way)! I definitely don’t support irresponsible traveling just for a “vacation” reason. Take a damn vacation in your own country. The only reason why I am now in Turkey is that my boyfriend lives here. And now I live here with him. Temporary. This is my home now. Temporary (Legal stay, long-distance relationship issues). And today’s it’s our 13 months anniversary 😍😍😍

  • Talks with Stars ☼

    Anna Kendrick Breaks Down Her Career, from ‘Pitch Perfect’ to ‘Twilight’ | Vanity Fair

    One of my favorite actresses Anna Kendrick breaks down her career. I like so many movies with her, I couldn’t pick just one which is best. I feel sorry that they didn’t mention Noelle here because that was just a super funny and brilliant funny movie, which I totally love. Simple favor is also a great choice to watch and Trolls will just lift up the mood.

  • Talks with Stars ☼

    73 Questions With Lady Gaga | Vogue

    I laugh really badly when I noticed the comment from Jed Angelo “I thought Gaga and the interviewer were practicing social distancing then I realized this was 2 years ago” 😂😂😂😂 Because the whole time I was watching this interview I was wondering why the hell they are shooting her from such a distance 😆 …

    I would like to highlight Lady Gaga’s answer to question What message do you want to send to your young female fans?

    Your body belongs to you, your mind belongs to you, your emotions belong to you and just always be true to yourself and exercise what you want to be all the time and if you don’t feel comfortable doing something then don’t do it, stay true to who you are.

    Such gold words. Always keep them on your mind. Don’t let anybody force you into something that is not something that doesn’t make you feel good about it. And that applies to everything. For every area of your life.

  • My Diary

    Hello June!

    Somehow I can’t realize how it’s possible that we are already stepping in month number 6 in the year 2020. Hopefully, June will be evolving itself into better tomorrows and this pandemic situation will start becoming better and better and the world will have a chance to start returning to normal again. As normal as possible, as we knew it before. Yep, I am talking mainly about traveling. I am specifically interested in this subject, especially because now with the current travel ban I and my boyfriend are separated in other countries from each other with the official government’s approval that we are not able to see each other now. And it’s already a freaking long time. So I hope our two countries will open each other as soon as possible so we can finally spend some face-time without a screen between us. So Hello June! I really hope better tomorrows are on the way!

    Probably it’s a good sign that this month begins with The Children’s Day. I would like to make a little stop here. Do you have children? Are you celebrating today’s day in your country? In your city? Some interesting traditions to share? Leave a comment below! I feel there is a social pressure around this topic. Society lined up the “right” timelines for us and there is really pressure especially for young women who are getting close to 30. I will be 28 this year. And I don’t have any thoughts about ticking clock and blah blah blah. I hope this is not controversial… but. I have girl-classmates from college who now have kids in kindergarten. Daaamn, I have even girl-classmates from primary school who have now their own kids in primary school.

    But if 80% or more of your peers have their own kids it doesn’t necessarily mean that you should already have your own kid now also. I am mainly speaking to girls now. If you are 28, 29, 30, whatever age – it’s not your obligation to have a kid before 30! It’s not your obligation to have a kid at all if we speak about it.. I mean, f#@k society expectations, f#@k stereotypes about what is “right” at a certain age. It’s your body and your mind it’s your decision if you’re not ready for parenting life yet, it’s okay!!! It’s 100% okay!!! We all have our own timelines and nobody, NOBODY, should start stressing about this just because society it’s expecting this from us. Nothing is wrong with you if you still have other interests and other priorities now than is starting your own family. It’s okay to have your own timeline and it’s okay to start thinking about it when you will start to feel ready for it. If you’re not ready don’t let anybody suggest to you those thoughts like there is probably something wrong with you because you’re still single and without kids. There’s nothing wrong with you!!

    I am surprised how this post turned out. I didn’t expect from myself or planned to talk about this. But when I mentioned Children’s Day it was somehow convenient and it came naturally to me. What do you think about this? Share your opinions with me in the comments.

  • Talks with Stars ☼,  You Can Do It!!

    Sofia Vergara Talks About Microfinancing

    Now in quarantine times Jimmy always lets his guests pick some charity for which spectators could donate money. Sofia picked kiva.org which is not actually so much about donating. Sofia thinks it’s really important to help people start their own business, get them going then just giving them food for the month because that does away. Like the old motto:

    Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.

    So this organization helps to give people a better future. They can help with funding and borrow money to you so you could get started when the bank refused to help. I think it’s really REALLY great from Sofia that she highlights this organization especially at this time when a lot of people lost their job due to COVID-19.

  • Talks with Stars ☼,  This Is A Dream House!!

    73 Questions With Camila Cabello | Vogue

    I love her today’s look and I love her home. I wish they showed us more from it because it looks very lovely. From this interview, I learned that there will be a new remake of Cinderella with Camilla in the main role which already got me really excited to see that!! Now you can watch 73 questions with Vogue which Camilla answered for them. I especially like one quote from the interview:

    It’s your job to fight for your happiness, it’s your responsibility to fight for your happiness and nobody and nothing will do that for you. You have to fight for it for yourself.

    Camilla learned this from her mom. She’s very lucky to have parent like that. This quote touches me personally and I can add just one thing to this. Let’s fight!